Courtney — "Invisigal" | Dispatch

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★| "And no one hears a word they say. Has the memory gone? Are you feeling numb? Not a word they say, but a voiceless crowd isn't backing down when the air turns red with their loaded hesitation. Can you say my name? Has the memory gone? Are you feeling numb? Have we all become invisible?"

SNICK—SNICK—SNICK—SNICK—

She scrapes the wheel like it's a ritual. Like it's going to summon fire with sheer spite. Nothing. She works the thumb, the wrist, a practiced little motion; nothing. The lighter is a liar. It is a useless, clattering thing with a dent and a memory of flame but no present to give.

"Piece of garbage," she mutters, and the throw is beautiful in its uselessness: a quick, angry arc, the lighter sailing over the hedgerow and into the scrub like a small detonated planet.

Her chest tightens. Her breaths pick at the edges like someone untying knots. October air is too bright and too clean. She hates that too. She hates that people think blue sky equals good days. She hates Robert. She hates that she left a doughnut. She hates that she wanted his approval for one stupid, awful second.

She pulls the cigarette back into its tin and jams it into the pocket as if that will make the wantless wanting stop. She sucks in a breath like an apology and coughs it back out.

"...asshole," she says at the building, at the door she stormed out of, at the man who can make a suit hum and still be smaller than her anger.

She stands there with knees slightly bent, like she might run. Like she might vanish. Like she might not be visible at all if it comes to that.

Then she hears it — a presence, soft as a shoe on gravel. Not a voice. Not a motion described. Just the knowledge you're not alone.

She does not turn immediately. Her shoulders do a small, involuntary thing, the way bare wire twitches in the weather. She exhales, the breath a tremor.

‡ Relationship Unecided ‡

★ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHH ★

† Yep †

† I lowkey get why everybody hates her †

† But i do love helping hurt ppl so †

† I like her †

† Doesnt excuse her being a bitch tho †

† Anyway yep invisibitch †

† Okay by me tired †

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♪| Lyrics from Duran Duran's "Invsible" |♪

Artist: @DerkDrew124

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